Where my ladies up in here that like to talk back!?

Tell me something, where your boss at? Where my ladies up in here that like to talk back? ~ Beyonce

So today at work some friends and I started to read/compare our zodiac signs to see if we would have a long lasting "working" relationship. Ya know.....were we all compatible :)

Anywho when I get compared against my buddy the tharpedo, another co-worker was shocked. And said " You guys didn't get along at first though..huh?" Tharpedo and I looked at each other, and then basically said "Ummmm yea we have always gotten along." So then the co-worker (we will call her "Cami")said : "Oh..I didn't think you guys would get along at first....cuz ya know...Rebekah is kinda...." and then she starts making this hand jesture that looks like a hand puppet..

So I was like "Rebekah is what??? She can talk?? WTF does that mean?" and Cami just says "Ya know she is kinda mouthy." Anywho Tharpedo just starts laughing and pretty much says that he has always liked the fact that I am so mouthy, and that is part of the reason y we get along." I started to LOL at first but then I thought...Hey WTF!!!! IM NOT MOUTHY!! Why is it that anytime a chick/women/girl/female (whatever has something valid to say and gets her point across that all the sudden that chick is mouthy? Or bitchy, or sassy ( I fuckin hate that word btw!!) And even if I was a lil mouthy I dont think I would allow it to get in the way of getting along with my co-workers. I will say what needs to be said but I think I know when to shut the fuck up!!! At least I hope I do...Oh well I don't even care that much if I am categorized as mouthy...I will be that one that always says what needs to be said, I just wish it didn't always come across so negatively.

Dear Drunk Girl,

Dear drunk girl,

Please stop talking to me in the bathroom line. I know you gotta piss because I can see you cupping your vag so ferosciously that you might pop your punanny. I do not want to discuss why there is no line for the men's restroom with you, go walk in there for Christs sake. Or better yet; wipe off your sweaty forehead, pick up your florescent tube top, and help your equally drunk girlfriend who is half passed out in the hallway. Y'all had one too many lemon drops and are hot messes.

What the, did you just call me Ma?
This is not NY and you aren't a smooth puerto rican papi trying to get in my panties. Get the hell out of here with that shit.

Sincerly,
Me.

Courtesy of : http://theboobs.blogspot.com/

Dear Reader,

have you ever been so distracted by something that it consumes you completely?


HELL FUCKING YESS!!! STORY OF MY LIFEE

Last Chance

Stumbled onto this. I had no idea Ginuwine was making a come back, funny how people don't really change in 10 yrs. Ginuwine looks the same as he did when I was in high school.

Well Tyrese changed of course, and I am I trippin or has he always been that cute??????
People have said I look like Lisa Raye since she debuted in Player's Club.....I hope I look like her when I am 40 too...

we goin party like.....we goin sip bacardi like....

Peaked my interest

So I watched the movie twilight this past weekend, and it wasn't nearly as painful as I thought it would be! I actually find that I am somewhat interested in what is going to happen in the next movie...which means I might read the book!!!

I hope this doesn't turn into another Harry Potter addiction...

Just remember...

Weekend Warriors Season 2

shop project mayhem now!

My bad is that your freak?

Memphis Bleek!!!! The last verse was my joint!

When someone u care about dies

Never really had to deal with death before, I hadn't really known anyone who died until recently. Now when I try and remember that person all I think about are the lies I told, and how often I did not appreciate that person. It has caused a lot of self reflection, that made me feel more guilty, since I should have been think of the person that died. I never made the effort to change for this person, I never went out of my way to be their for him, I never showed him how much I actually respected him, and now.......I never will.

The part I feel the worst about is even in his death, this person was able to show me he cared about me by the things he left behind. And I can't say that if the tables had been turned he would have been able to say the same thing. Crawling under a rock sounds really good right about now.

Magazine Covers

So I got a new project for my class, we have to re-create a magazine cover that inspires us. Initially I went for my very favorite the Keyshia Cole mag (I posted earlier) but now that I am looking around more, I am falling in love with a lot of covers!!!

Here are some of my favs that I am deciding between:


Gwen:





DEXTER!!



back when Brit was sexy



I truly miss Kid....never has white trash looked so FUCKIN COOL!!



and last but not least






That last one was for you Tharpedo!! Anyway back to homework

Poem: Jamarr

Jamar from amk on Vimeo.


More ill stuff from my new muse...Check it out.

Her Poetry....My feelings

4.13.2009

If I fell like this to the end of the world, would you catch me?
Of corse not. Because I don’t need you too.
And even if you attempted too I’m sure I’d push you away and give some sarcastic narcissistic comment like I don’t need your help I can handle this!
Knowing damn well I can’t.
But I’m too stubborn. To ask for help.
I always have been.
It’s not pride but an overwhelming reluctance to give in
Because subconsciously I have a point to prove to absolutely nobody
That I can do this on my own.
Because then maybe I’ll be worth all the shit everyone’s ever done for me.
Not that I owe them anything, but just so that I know it was effort well spent
Because the Aquarius in me needs to please everybody and the Pisces in me needs balance and complimentary function ability
So as to say that one day I’ll return the favor.
Or maybe, I’m just trippin...
Again.
Yea, maybe.
I do that sometimes.

Ashton Mari

photo by sean lyles

Killing me softly...

Have you ever felt like someone that you don't know, knows you? The writings & poems of a complete stranger have sent chills up my back. I have seen those words...... I have felt, cried, loved, died and screamed those words.

This women has captured every deep emotion I have ever tried to suppress. She rescued a women I had hidden away in a far off tower, that I left for dead. And while reading all these entries and poems and blogs all I heard in the background was Lauryn Hill singing "Stromin my pain with his fingers, Singin my life with his words, Killing me softly with his song, Killing me softly with his song, Telling my whole life with his words, Killing me softly with his song "

This women doesn't know me, nor I her. But she has to be one of the greatest writers I have ever had the pleasure of reading. She has truly inspired me....to be the person I used to be. Not the person I have become from all the shit I went through. A true artist: Ashton Mari

I am speechless.....and her writings have touched a special place in my heart

Ill ass Shot

photo by sean lyles

Don't forget who u are / Love people right

And it, and it begins, he walks outside for a cigarette break
And thinks how many cigarettes does it take
He takes a long drag with the sun in his eye
He squints, he thinks he starts to sigh
Sometimes he cry
When he think about his girlfriend on his side
She held him down, she made him better
Fought the love, through the fucked up weather
And she thinkin about her life
With no more work just being a wife
But instead her love, she gave it to a man
Who fought against her lovely plans
So when she go to work, plus go to school
Plus fight the love, she must feel like a fool
She want the ease that come after pain
She fights for love, thats her campaign
We fight, we love


We fight and love so much sometimes
I get confused of who we are
Maybe if we just stop and chat and
It will find out who we are

(Fight) just a little bit
(Love) just a little bit
(Fight) just a little bit
(Love) just a little bit more

We just keep on...

(Fight) just a little bit
(Love) just a little bit
(Fight) just a little bit
(Love) just a little bit more

And it, and it begins, he's off the ball
He left his friends, he ain't home no more
He's in a place, that's far away
Where he can't understand what they say
They say salaam, they cary bombs
In crouded places, and cause alarm
You're the infidel who's uninvited
But really an American boy who's slighted
It ain't your fault, you want identity
So you join this big fraternity
You get to travel the world, its cheaper than college
And you get guns and you get knowledge
Lookin for your soul, and WMD's
You can't find nothing, cause its empty
You got your gun, and he's your friend
And he's your man, until the end
We fight, we love

We fight and love so much sometimes
I get confused of who we are
Maybe if we just stop and chat and
It will find out who we are

(Fight) just a little bit
(Love) just a little bit
(Fight) just a little bit
(Love) just a little bit more

We just keep on...

(Fight) just a little bit
(Love) just a little bit
(Fight) just a little bit
(Love) just a little bit more

The Tharpedo Hearts Halle

So my buddy Tharpedo is mildly infatuated.......well no that's the wrong way to describe it.

My buddy the Tharpedo is fucking insanely obsessed with Hally Berry, and takes it immensely personal when you mention anything that might even allude to the fact that she is eccentric. So I won't say those type of things anymore, but pictures will scream it for me!! LOL thanx paparazzi!!

I wanna see this SOOOOO BAD

I gotta see "B" WHOOP HER ASS!!!

Plus watching Idris Elba is never a bad thing either :)

I'll take a crazy red head

Honesty at its finest, but hey you aint shit if you cant laugh at yourself!!!

Lindsay Lohan's eHarmony Profile from Lindsay Lohan

Its okay Lindsay baby I still want you!! I will take alcoholic and crazy over sober and normal any day!

Transcript with an Ex

Bek: Hello...
Ex: Hey Nigga !
Bek: What up Nigga!?
Ex: Whatchu doin?
Bek: Chillin, u?
Ex: Thinkin bout u
Bek: Wow...umm yea...OOOOOkkkay. So what's up?
Ex: am I botherin u?
Bek: naw...... just asking, How's school goin?
Ex: Good...
(LONG SILENCE)
Bek: cool...ummm well
Ex: So what's the deal girl?
Bek: what do you mean?
Ex: U just actin all funny style, It's not like Im cakin on u!
Bek: uhhh... what?
Ex: Im jus sayin we trynna be cool or what?
Bek: WTF are u talking about, How am I not acting cool?
Ex: Don't start yellin nigga!
Bek: Are u tryin to piss me off????
Ex: Hahaha Naw but for real, what u doin?
Bek: I'm trying not to get irritated by this phone conversation. I gotta go..
Ex: Why?
Bek: cuz I do
Ex: thats not very friendly hahahaha
Bek: don't say "friend" like ur holding it aganist me?
Ex: Im not.. Im just sayin U wanted to be friends, but UR not being friendly....
Bek: nigga then dont be my god damn friend!
Ex: Oh so no u dont wanna be friends? WTF is your problem?
Bek: My other line is beeping, Hold on
Ex: U puttin me on hold to answer some othr nigga!?!?!
Bek: wtf are u talking about?
Ex: Who is callin u?
Bek: NIGGA WHO IS CALLIN U!!!
Ex: I see how it is, U cant even answer the question....
Bek: No, I just don't have to
Ex: whatever, handle ur business pimp
Bek: K, bye
Ex: thats fucked up!!! FOR REAL!!
Bek: Got it bye!
Ex: we aint friends nigga bye!
Bek: Cool bye!
Ex: BITCH!!!!


I'mma Chalk this up to a bad day for the homie. Maybe one day u won't be mad at me anymore! :)
Play some Keyshia Cole, thats what I do!

Pleasure & Pain

photo by sean lyles

From the Movie ATL


pleasure turns to the pain,
lessons learned from the strain,
questions burned in my brain..
about whether love is humane
in its touch....
These thoughts are like salmon swimming upstream
in the tears of your deceit.
Fighting the current hurt that kills more than is created by the chaos
of our intertwined emotions.
Chaotic because the anchor of Erros’ arrow has been plucked
from the vessel of my undying infatuation
separation not as simple as the distance between us.
My mind no longer possessed by demons
that have been the overseers of my enslavement to your lies
the seeds of these lies rooted so deeply
they have cracked the foundation of what we once shared.
Allowing the faith in us, i had , sealed inside
to gush out like a river.
Ripping the image of our future together from my thoughts,
as violently and as brutally as if it were a child
being taken from its mothers arms.
I'm left surrounded in darkness,
but I refuse to be swallowed by it.
My loneliness like the night air
invisible to the eye,
obvious to the touch,
it is cold uncomfortableness,
yet if i could do it all over again.......
I'd do it in the same skin I'm in.



To lay down and let love die
Just stay down and let love lie?
No, No..not I
I'd stay around and let love fly
even though I have seen its darkest form
deceit.....
nothing else could taste this warm
or feel this sweet…

Time for a change?????

I am one of the most impulsive women anyone would ever meet......
But I WONT do that, no matter what comes over me!!!
Cassie is no longer on my TOP 10 lesbian celebrity crushes, Meagan Good just took her place

It's Back....

Dear lord when will it end? How log can they stretch out the Hiedi / Lauren friendship, Spencer is an asshole, Audrina likes bad boys and Lo has no life???


*sigh* I say that like I don't sit down and watch it LOL

I Heart Sarcasm

Sprinklin u fools with this G.A.M.E!

This song was my shit!!!! First time i heard this song I was visiting my cousins in the bay, and by that night we were irritating our parents when we kept saying "Time-a time-a....40 wata!!!" Sprinkle Me now...Sprinkle Me now...Sprinkle Me now... hahahah.


And fer fer remember when we went to go to pix at the asian place and they had this song in the background!?!?! awww memories...

Love this $hit!

Love the cover of this Mag..

M.O.B

More guys in TATS....*sigh* thass gangsta LOL

Break ups to Make up

Poor women she is a classic victim. Right back in the crazy guys arm, dont get me wrong Chris is hot...but Crazy...Maybe she likes it rough?

lesbi-HONEST!!!

I have no idea why I like this song so much, It cracks me up though, for real.

Super Galactic Beat Manipulators

I ♥ SGBM (Super Galactic Beat Manipulators) Big ups to Chrissy, she is my favorite dancer.
And Lando and KJ both great choroegraphers , Did I mention the groups director is KB from JabbaWOCKEEZ?? And yes also a fan of Jabba, but don't get it twisted I knew them WAY B4 they became famous.

We "hooked up"

I hate the term "Hook up", it has to be the most ambiguous phrase EVER!! Well unless you are using it as: "I got a hook up"

Other then that, the term is thrown around and has multiple meanings. For fuck sake did you have sex with her or not???!?!?! Don't say " We hooked up" that means shit to me!!



http://www.urbandictionary.com/define.php?term=Hook+up

Allergy Season

Every time I start to think that Sacramento isn't that bad, spring season comes around and reminds me why it S.U.C.K.S


Allergies are the worst, and your body is literally going into threat level midnight trying to resolve an issue that essentially isn't there... but is....well technically its there. but your body is having an abnormal reaction to a "harmless" substance. HARMLESS MY ASS!!!

My Fuckin nose is on fire, I still don't know why the hell I am coughing, my eyes are so dry I have to applu "fake tears" just to see properly, and I would pay G.O.O.D. money NOT to wake up in the morning with my eyes swollen due to my inflamed sinuses!!

So I decide to google "worst allergy cities in the US" fully expecting to see Sac CA at least in the top 5..........sadly we are not even in the top 100!!!!!! I was SHOCKED!! My first thought was BULL SHIT, I'm practically dying over here, but then I thought.....OMG how bad is it over there????

Mannequins need love too

So I was browsing the nets in a mtg and came across this number. I actually LOL'd in front of everyone and then had to use the F11 button on my mac to wipe the screen clear before anyone saw it. It was HILARIOUS; big ups to Sean Lyles
(http://sdotss.blogspot.com)

T.I Sentenced to Jail

Photo Credit: cdn.picapp.com

As expected, on March 27th T.I. was sentenced to a year and a day in prison. Because of the experimental plea bargain that was put together by his legal team, he was able to have his term reduced from the minimum four years and nine months for his crime. The rapper paid a fine of $100,000, stayed under house arrest and completed 1,000 hours of community service, with another 500 hours due after his release. T.I. isn't expected to report to prison for another four to eight weeks because of prior commitments he has. Fortunately there is hope that his 366 day sentence can be reduced by 15% because of good behavior which would leave it at 298 days.

I dont know what it is

I don't know what it is about Ed Westwick's character " Chuck Bass". But I WANT HIM!!!!

Maybe its the fact that he is a raving vindictive asshole that never apologizes, or sees anything wrong with what he does. He keeps all of his feelings bottled inside, and when he finally does go bizerk he drowns all his sorrows in meaningless sex, massive alcohol consumption, and drugs......God He is is sexy!!!!

So excited!!

Just bought some of these, cant wait for the postman:

Shit Im still bumpin his 1st album

hope this one is good too!

What really is the benefit??

I have yet to see the true benefit of becoming more then friends. Or attempting to become friends if you never started off that way. Situations that would normally be fun turn into awkward glances, racing thoughts, unsaid feelings, and overall discomfort.

Then when you actually try and be friends or friendly, its never taken that way. If feelings aren't returned, kiss the friendship goodbye, if feelings are on both sides but it doesn't work out...kiss the friendship goodbye. And god forbid u go to a club with ur "friend" and someone else approaches them/you. Because at that time comfort and friendship is taken into a whole new level

Don't get me wrong I believe it has been successful sometimes. However it has NEVER worked in my situation, whether I have been friends first with the guy, or never been friends at all. Or we both just realized we aren't right for each other, attempting to be friends or friends with benefits always ends up a bad idea. I seriously try harder in the relationships when they "used to be " a friend, because I want the "friendship" to still be there.

It way less maintenance when its just someone I'm infatuated with. I think they are great 1 month and then the next month its over, and u can break up with the person for some random reason. No more friends with benefits.......in fact, Im gonna have to get friends Im not attracted to..

I'm going through a phase, right now the phase is obsessing over other people's tattoos. Models with tattoos are my current weakness, both men and women.

Most currently I am drooling over these models reppin for BLVCK SCVLE. *sigh*

who doesn't ♥ love bad boys