Anticipation

I'm not anticipating his album, I gotta be honest and say I only have like 3 of his songs, but I love the album cover. I haven't been hiding that my current weakness has been men in Tats.... and this REALLY caught my eye....

TuTu Nights

Apparently TuTu's are trying to make a come back, it had a brief moment in the early/mid/ and late 80's. Looks like its rearing it's ugly head again.

But the thing I love about this picture, is that I can't decide which is better..

The drunken "I am so sexy stare"
or the fact that her deodorant matches her outfit.

it's a toss up!!




courtesy of the boobs

Slap yourself

Now I like Solange so I won't bag, well I will try not to, but damn!!!
Just stop it....pick your cootie up, put some underwear on, and slap whoever told you that it looked good.

HEELLLLOOO NURSE

Nature SUX

I am traumatized. Yesterday I was bringing my overnight bags into my house, and once I got them out of the trunk and I was walking on my walk way, I feel a very hearty THUD on my shoulder.

I'm thinking to myself that there is no way that could be a leaf or any other normal debris, so I look behind me and I see a small wiggling baby bird. Not like a cute baby bird with little feathers, but a baby bird straight from the egg!!!! It was HORRIBLE, and 2 seconds later, while I am still trying to cope with the fact that this poor bird is dying & most likely suffering, another bird falls from the roof and drops to its death. Did I mention that it was at least 103 that day?

One baby bird was dead, and the other one was dying. Once I pull myself together and decide to at least pick up there poor little carcasses, I see some stupid ass neighbors cat in my walk way!! Then when I yelled at it, it ran off and took both the baby birds with it!!!

I felt like ass the rest of the day, and haven't been able to forget it. Then when I get home from work today, what do I see in my walk way yet again? ANOTHER FUCKING BABY BIRD!!! If I ever find the mama or nest, I'm about to fuck them both up. That bitch aint watchin her kids :/

Ohhh WOW

Come on BK,this is doing just a little to much.
Doesn't make me wanna buy one .. :/

I wish a nigga would

A proper site

Just when I am trying to be good and save money, I find my new FAVORITE store!!!! IT almost hurts to continue browsing but I can't stop. Why universe? Why can't you let me be happy with what I have and not tempt me so....this stuff is calling my name like Megan Fox, half-dressed in one of my lesbian lover dreams. **sigh**

Next time I will have to check them out:
425 E. 1st St Long Beach CA 90802

check them out @ Proper

The Price that ALL men pay

REMEMBER THE TIME from Marga y Beno on Vimeo.

The King of pop is dead, and now back to our regularly scheduled program

I Heart Anime

I LOVED this anime cartoon, have all the seasons, and now..... I have the movie to look forward to !!! Yup I'm a FUCKING DORK :/

Currently Drooling over

Even though the new iPhone 3Gs is really calling my name....I just can't bring myself to switch over to AT&T. And yes, I know T-mobile leases AT&T's towers, but T-mobile is cheaper LOL!! So I don't expect wonderful service from them!!!

When iPhone moves to Verizon, I'll give the big peace out to Tmobile and AT&T, but since I am still in a contract with Tmobile, Im gonna go ahead and cop this :)

Owned!

R&B singer Chris Brown has pleaded guilty in the US to one count of assault on his former girlfriend, Rihanna.

Brown, 19, was sentenced to five years' probation and ordered to do six months of community service.

Brown had faced charges of assaulting Rihanna, 21, during a row in February.

The last-minute plea deal came before a hearing at a Los Angeles court at which Rihanna was due to give evidence. She said the sentence was "fair".

Brown had been facing a potential jail sentence of four years.

His sentence involves five years of supervised probation and six months of community labour, such as picking up litter or removing graffiti.

He will also have to attend courses on domestic violence.


The Los Angeles County Superior Court judge also ordered Brown and Rihanna to stay at least 50 yards from each other, except at entertainment industry events when the distance is reduced to 10 yards.

Sometimes my friends concern me

Umm hello?!?! Already your friend nigga!! LOL

Umm Why isn't this a national Holiday

I feel better

Dear Reader;

Do you ever feel better when you find out someone has made just as many mistakes as you have? I do.....makes me feel like I'm not the only one doing fucked up things to people :)

Did you know ??

That rapper Aubrey Drake Graham used to play "Jimmy Brooks" in that TV show Degrassi???

My how some boys grow up :)

This Nigga Sean

I really like most of the images from Sean Lyles, here are a few of my favorites.

I hear u be the block but I'm the life that keeps the streets on

This is by far my favorite Beyonce Video! Work it B!!!


Beyonce Music Videos

Such a fucking Gemini

Sexual Compatibility

Your sexuality is, well, shall we say, fickle? Let's face it, you do blow hot and cold (sometimes even at the same time, a feat not easily appreciable by the non-Geminian...). You love adventure and intrigue and will take all manner of risks in the runaround involved with your urgent desire to avoid boredom. Ruled by Mercury, the god (among other things) of tricksters and thieves

, you are far from straightforward and uncomplicated in the pursuit of your desires.

You tend to be ambi-sexual and are not unduly averse to multiple partners of either sex, should they fit the needs of the moment and spark up one or another side of your often contradictory nature.

Admirers should be aware that your dual nature may not be satisfied with just one partner. You are tolerant of most things (including infidelity, but excepting dullness!) and you expect the same tolerance that you allow others.

You love zooming around, running right left and centre. As a source of information you are unparalleled and you love to keep in touch with your friends, neighbours and indeed anyone who is on your wavelength. The mobile phone, if not invented by a Gemini, was definitely invented for you – and is certainly your most treasured accessory!

Gemini rules the hands and arms, lungs, thymus gland and upper ribs; people with Gemini active in their charts are subject to injury or infection in these areas and should resist the temptation to smoke. Geminians are also subject to mental distraction and hovering between alternatives, or attempting to pursue mutually conflicting goals.

One of those days

Think to the last person you kissed, have you ever kissed them on your bed?
No

Is there one person you look at and automatically smile?
yup yup.

Have you kissed the same person more than 20 times in 09?
Oh wow, counting.....I really don't know

When was the last time you held hands with someone?
Couple weeks ago

Does it make you uncomfortable when you receive a compliment?
Very UNcomfortable

When was the last time you were unhappy with your life?
When I was married

Do you want your life to stay the way it is right now forever?
Naw

What is your opinion on cheaters?
1/2 are insecure, the other half are just selfish and really don't give a shit about anyone else
(I'm saying this from experience)

Anyone of the opposite sex been on your mind lately?
constantly

Who was the last person you hugged?
Kim

Are you nice to everyone?
apparently not

Who is someone you wish you could fix things with?
I can't say I wanna "fix" things, but I just wish we can go back to normal.
(Jrob)

Where EXACTLY were you when you entered 2009?
In Bed

How many hours of sleep did you get last night?
Maybe 6

What are you listening to?
my phone going off, and me attempting to ignore it

Are you wearing any make up right now?
Naw nigga

What would you do if you found out you had been cheated on?
Prolly break up wit dude

Do you sing obnoxiously in the car?
Oh fa show!!

Have you kissed more than ten people this year?
Less then 10 thank god

Expecting something to change in the next month?
Who cares


Are you the type of person who is often in off and on relationships?
*sigh* sadly yes, and I do realize that most of the time its my fault. I'm impulsive

What is the most difficult thing you've ever had to overcome?
Lots of shit, that I dont feel like re-living right now

Could you ever be friends with someone who hurt you badly?
Naw...they turn into associates after that

Last car you rode in besides your own?
Kraig - the Tharpedo

Who did you talk to on the phone last/why?
Faraji - cause he called me

When was the last time you went shopping?
Shop online a lot

What do you normally do when you've had a really bad day?
Go to bed early

Is your cell phone fully charged?
Hell naw

Will your next kiss be a mistake?
How the hell would I know that??

Is there someone you wish you could be spending your time with right now?
I ain't trippin

Are you currently wearing any perfume or cologne?
not really

What is something you realized recently?
I suck in relationships - well I didn't realize that recently, but I was recently reminded.

Are you wearing something of someone elses?/Whos?
got my own shit.

Did you hurt the last person you kissed physically?
Not PHYSICALLY

What do you have to say about the first boy on your top?
Top what?

When do you want to get married?
NOT FUCKING FUNNY!


Think back nine months ago, were you single?
errr...No i guess I wasn't

One thing you're looking forward to?
- future.

Have you ever had someone pick you up off the ground & carry you?
Mos def

When was the last time you cried?
- idont recall?

Would you ever dye your hair blonde?
- not the whole damn thang!

Is there anybody you just wish would fall off the planet?
only temporarily :)

Do you honestly love your friends?
most of them

Are you happy with the way things are going?
- naaaah.

Do you have a best friend that is a boy?
Mos def

Would you rather have roommates or live alone?
- either or.

Is your best friend single?
Nope, none of my friends are

Are you usually a happy person?
I think so

Do you bite your nails?
Never thaat

Have you argued with anyone today?
not that I recall

What plans do you have for tomorrow?
shit...NUTHIN

Who was the last male you hugged?
Faraji

Who was the last female you hugged?
Tessa

Whats the last movie you watched at home?
Notorious & Twilight

Can you type fast?
yup yup

Do you have good handwriting?
- they say.

Have you ever drove without your license?
hahahahaha no comment

What is your favorite scent?
I gott a lot

Do you do your own laundry?
Yes

What kind of car do you want?
Infiniti or an Audi

Are you a good singer?
LOL

If you were to die today, would your life be complete?
I guess

How late did you stay up last night and why?
11pm, and I was arguing with someone

Are you currently frustrated with anyone or anything?
Yes to both

Would you ever get a tattoo/belly ring?
Been there done that

Do you think relationships are ever really worth it?
depends on the person, other then that...naw.

Is there someone on your mind right now?
naw Im cool

What was the last thing you ate and where?
Chicken at home

Do you take pills daily?
Nope

Wearing any bracelets?
Just took em off

What were you doing at 8:00 this morning?
prolly working

What's the last compliment you received?
something about the way I looked and my hair

Do you say sexy a lot?
Never

What color are your socks?
what socks?

Do you get annoyed when you see someone you don't like?
Not unless they say something stupid to me

Do you believe everything happens for a reason?
LOL no!! That's bs we tell ourselves to make people feel better.

Do you feel like you're a good person?
oh fa show :)


Are you going to have a good night?
and u know this......MAYNE!!!!
.

Do you straighten your hair everyday?
- go through it.

Did you wake up in the middle of the night last night?
Mos def

Last song you heard?
Dont u have a man


Has anyone ever told you that you have pretty eyes?
Mos def

Do you know anyone with the same birthday as you?
Tilly Chaidez

Are you single?
Yes just recently

My safety net

I've had a "safety net" for a number of years. Someone who always make me...... feel good about who I am. I fear I have pushed my safety net away forever, that's such a typical me thing to do.

I don't even know when I am doing it anymore...

Office Lineback

J. A. D. A

"You are the omega of my heart,
The foundation of my conception of love,
When I think of what a black woman should be,
It's you that I first think of,
You will never fully understand,
How deeply my heart feels for you,
I worry that we'll grow apart,
And I'll end up losing you,
You bring me to climax without sex,
And you do it all with regal grace,
You are my heart in human form,
A friend I could never replace".....~ TuPac Shakur

This is why I love sports

It's moments like these that make me run to ESPN highlights, LOL.

The batter did some quick thinking here, took out the catcher first :)

Baseball player karate kicks umpire | User Video | SPIKE.com

I didn't think it could happen

I have never really been a fan of Lil Kim, and after watching the biggie movie and doing some research on the nets, remarkably enough I have even less respect for her then I originally did. (Which was never a lot)

She always made it seem like she was some hard core ass chick that, has never, and will never fall in love. I was young when the biggie/Kim/Faith Evans drama was goin on, so I didn't really know the extent of everything, but I did understand that Big was married to Faith, and Kim was a side piece.

Turns out that Kim is , THAT BITCH! Ya know, that bitch that you fuck and NEVER GOES AWAY!!! I mean even Big's mom was saying she felt bad about how her son treated Kim, and it would be dumb to say that biggie didn't care about her, since he literally took her from rags to riches! But damn girl, get over the shit, move on!!! Even if she felt like Big and Faith shouldn't be together you should NEVER settle for side piece!!! Let that shit go, and come back when and if its over.....apparently this broad never got out of the relationship. Here is an exert from Faith's book :

"I got to Big's bedroom door, turned the knob, and went inside. As soon as I saw a small lump next to Big's large frame, I flew into a rage, ran over to the side of the bed, and pulled back the covers. I grabbed some chick out of the bed and started beating her a—. At some point, the chick's wig came off in my hand: It was a short, cropped wig. I stopped throwing punches for a minute to get a good look at the chick I was beating up. It Lil' Kim. She was completely butt-naked, yelling as I pushed her around the room.

"So you're not f—-ing her, right?" I screamed at Big. "Yeah, you not messing with her anymore right?"

When they heard the commotion, Cease, D-Roc, and Gutter came running into the room.

"Oh s—-!" they yelled in unison. "It's Faye! How the hell she get in here?"

Big sat up in bed and pointed at Kim, who was standing in a corner of the room, trying to cover her naked body with her hands and while I was still yelling at Big.

"Yo, get her outta here," Big said. They led Kim out of the room and she screamed and cursed the whole way. "

Kim also seemed to have issues with the way she was portrayed in the movie, because when she expressed these concerns these were the responses she received:

Wayne Barrow — Biggie’s former manager
"Our job as producers ... was to deliver for three individuals. That’s his mom and his two children. Everybody else: Stand in line, buy a ticket and enjoy the show.”

Voletta Wallace - Biggie's Mom
“This is not a Lil Kim movie, this is a Christopher Wallace movie. It has nothing to do with Lil Kim. If she’s disappointed and upset, that is her problem.”

ummm yea ouch...anyway..my point was, Kim wasn't portraying who she really was or is. Maybe the experience changed her, maybe it didn't, but she shouldn't have been pretending that she was something she wasn't. I mean she even got her ass beat by Faith Evans....LOL, and Faith wasn't even from BK!!

Apple Apple Apple

Apple posted the 2009 WWDC Keynote stream today that had a bunch of crazy announcements, the honestly never cease to amaze me!!

More Guns then Roses

TAKE ME BACK!!! LOL

Word 2 ur Mutha!

" Go out & get some self respect, cause to many people are comfortable settling for less. " - Anonymous

untitled #43 - Ash Mari

untitled #43

I think my body temperature just dropped to 20 below. Melted snow from igloo roofs and tears running down my cheeks are all the same. She just doesn’t get it. And I keep contradicting myself because one day I’m strong and I think I might be ok but the next day comes along and I can’t do it. I find some excuse to accidentally dial her number or send an instigating text. Just so I can get some attention. Desperate. Love sick. Whatever you wana call it…I am it.

I am below the water that sits in the lowliest places where it rubs shoulder to shoulder with mildew and feces from down stream. My tail is between my legs because there is no denying that I am guilty of doing what I do best which is fucking this one up! I am beyond left field, outer space, my own mind and this fucking place that I can’t seem to scrub clean enough because I can still smell your scent lingering. Love has become my addiction. I need a fix. My supplier has moved on, rather backwards to the last one, forcing me to let go cold turkey and I have been having violent withdrawals. So I started to switch to a different habit but this bottle is empty and these cloves numb my tongue. I don’t want to be that drunk crazy lady. “Keep it real wit the nex nigga in line”.

That’s what she said to me. Affirmation that she has eliminated any possibilities that I may not be open for business. My love has been bought and returned it seems. The product is no good due to damage caused from shipping and handling…

*END Ashton Mari

Livin for the moment

Don't hate me, for I didn't mean to do it.
Don't love me, cause trust me babe...I'm not worth it.

I would like to think that I am the lovey dovey, girly girl that really only needs your patience and loyalty. But honestly..I am a jaded, cynical, pessimistic, version of the doe eyed, hopeful, girly girl I left behind the 1st time my heart broke.

I made up my mind a long time ago that I no longer wanted to be the one crying, hopeless, loveless, picking up the pieces that used to be my love and faith in you. I obsessed over all of them....sleepless, painful, soul aching nights, wondering what I said or did, that made you do me that way. I went through every text, email, voicemail, and letter that always read the same affection for me...But now all I hear and see is anger, and not the same person I used to cherish. What made me so different? What made them so much better? Even after hearing your reasoning it still never added up. And once my logical side crashes after realizing that its not an equation with only one answer, I am left with my emotions.

I can't be left alone with them....I am afraid of my emotions. They don't listen to ME!!! They do the opposite of everything my brain tells them to do!! They wake me up at night with memories of you, memories of the things you said, memories of us, memories of what I was. They sneak up on me when I work, cook, and eat. Taunting me that what I once had is lost and in the arms of another. Not because I did anything wrong...but because you are to insecure to allow me to ever hurt you....the way you just hurt me.

Naw bay I can't be that chick again.

You can call me a bitch but that word is already burnt in my brain, right next to my name, and it carries no pain.

You can call me a flake, but I really don't care, and was never fully there, so stop wasting all your air.

You can't say it wasn't fun while it lasted, or that I led you on, cause baby I live in the moment & now...our moment is gone.

Maybe it's Just me

Alright now somethings I am slow on the uptake about, and this might be one of them.

I finally just finished watching the biggie movie yesterday and the chick that played lil' Kim looked MAD familiar to me. I Couldn't figure it out though.......so finally when the movie is over I google the actors name that played lil' Kim (Naturi Naughton) and BLAM!!! Why is it the chick from that old ass group 3LW, that turned into the cheetah girls!!

Except Naturi, she didn't turn into a cheetah girl...but ya know what I mean....anyways well played mama, commin out of nowhere and then smackin them down. While they are still doing Disney Channel BS you're out there doin your thang!!

Wrapping it up

I am trying to wrap up my great weekend, and I have realized I have the best friends EVER!! They know me so well :)

One of my friends decided to give me a new look as a present, AND I FUCKING LOVE IT!!!!
Got some gift cards, and who doesn't love that, also received one of the corniest cards I have ever seen in my life, which makes me love it more!! And a beautiful pearl necklace.

Not to mention the two days of dinners and partying that all my friends came out to show support for. So thanx to all of you!!!! Only thing I am upset about is when we went to the club I apparently missed the fight of the century that happened in one of the rooms!!! Chairs flying, stomping, all that fun stuff :( DAMMIT that's what I get for hangin outside...

But all in all a good weekend. Just cleaning and relaxing are scheduled for the rest of the day, so thanks again to everyone!! LOVE U ALL

Ya know what grinds my gears

Sorry Im on a video tip today, but enjoy

JT on a roll

Funny azz Justin Timberlake skit - S.N.L skit [5/9/2009]

Homelessville

Owned!

While I think it was staged, I also think its hilarious! Its like a reverse teabag and just hilarious. Plus I love the fact that Borat is still talking shit after he gets roughed up a lil by Em's entourage.
This nigga said "Will the real slim shady please stand up" LOL priceless :)

DNT LOVE ME LIKE YA DO!!

With the exception of Biggie, I try and ignore anything that P.Diddy is involved with. So I have ignored Day 26 and Danity Kane and all those other making the band BS groups. I'm not attempting to knock the talents of the individuals in those groups, I just cant support Diddy. Simple as that. Grown ass man dancing around like a cheerleader...psh :/


Anyway I tried and I tried not to get involved with it, but I can't help it anymore.
Willie Taylor is fucking gorgeous!!! Crushes are not normal with me either, but for Willie...*sigh*.... and his Tats I will make an exception. How can u not daydream over this???



For real though, Quit playin Willie, Call me :)

My Anthem

Her songs have been on repeat in my iPod for a while now, and I love her swag in this video

back in the days when I was young, Im not a kid anymore

So I had been hangin out with someone from my past. A dude I used to "date" when I was a teenager. It's hilarious because this guy is exactly the same, he is still doing the same thing he was doing when we were kids. And that is....smokin weed, seriously homie is a straight chimney!!!

Anyway I had told myself that I just cant hang out with this guy to much because he is into some bad shit and is T R O U B L E! But of course on a bored Friday night when he invites me out, what do I say??? "Sure BRT" this was the first of many bad decisions made that night....let's just wrap it up by saying that I ended the night on the sidewalk with my hands behind my back, while police were flippin his car. :/ I wish I was kidding...

Needless to say out of everyone in the car I was the ONLY (I repeat only) one in the car who had a valid drivers license, and WITHOUT any warrants for my arrest!! I guess the police didn't want to deal with all the paper work so they let 1 guy go without arresting and told him to clear up his warrants. But my friend was arrested and taken to jail without bail. Did I mention that I had to drive all of his friends home in his car, and then drive back to his house to get my car and go home? Oh wait here is the best part, I got home at 5:30 am.......(and if you don't know me, lets just say I really really really love my sleep)

What's the moral of the story? I love where I came from and the people I grew up with, but I have also grown out of some stuff, and THAT WAS DEFINITLEY ONE OF THEM!!!! Been there, done that, and I figured out then that that stuff was not for me. So yea I get reminded of that one song that goes: "Back in the days when I was young, Im not a kid anymore, but some days I sit and wish I was a kid again" Which is true, some days I do wish I was a kid again, but not that day!! LOL