Sometimes my own mind is my worst enemy. I can't stop repeating in my mind the horrible things that have happened to me....
A part of me wants to believe its because I don't want to make the same mistakes I have made over and over again, the other side of me believes that I deserve everything that has happened to me and maybe more. So I torture myself in my own head to make up for the all the wrongs I have done to others.
How bleak, and melodramatic. In reality all I am doing is regularly attending my own pity party. I'm telling my head to shut up noww....
15 years ago
